I’ve been a negative nancy lately. Mostly because of the people around me, and the people I encounter daily. No one seems to care about anyone anymore. I’ve been in the mindset where I’m taking it personally. I shouldn’t, but how can’t I?
When did it become ok to not smile at someone that looks at you, or to say thank you when you hold the door open for someone? Are things so horrible that no one can acknowledge the kindness of another? I’ll tell you, if someone shows kindness to me, it’s appreciated, and they’ll know that. I’ll say thank you. It’s rare though.
These are everyday things. Things that are minor annoyances that build up. And when someone is unkind to me, I have the tendency to do the same to someone else. I hate that feeling. Sometimes it feels impossible to be civil in a world that is not. Like pulling out of a parking lot in traffic when you have a moment, and the car coming at you speeds up, just to prove something. I get it. People are pissed off. We are all pissed off and we have stress and stuff going on in our lives. But when did it become ok to take it out on everyone?
The cashier that hates her job and takes it out on me, the person ahead of me at Starbucks that complains about the tax, the person driving behind me during a snowstorm flashing the high beams because I’m not driving fast enough.
All of these and more are making me lose faith in humanity, as cliche as that is. No one has patience anymore. It’s making me angry, and I hate that. Everyone is intrusive, entitled, and pissed, and they’re making me that way too.
I want to fix this. Not others, but I want to fix how I deal with them. I’m not doing so great lately. People will always be entitled, intrusive and pissed, and my goal is to not feed into that. I’ve been unsuccessful so far, but it’s something I’m working toward. Their feelings aren’t mine, and neither are their problems. I just want to get to the place where it doesn’t hurt. Where I’m not just some anonymous person to take their frustrations out on.
All I can say to the angry ones is, you need to realize that the person you lash out at is not the cause of your problems. Someday, you may encounter a broken soul, and your harsh reactions may put them over the edge. You never know what’s going on in someone’s life. Deal with your shit and don’t subject us to it. You never know what impact your anger or rudeness or disregard for someone’s feelings can do to someone.
Grow up and deal. In private, bitch all you want. In public, be kind. Your problems aren’t our fault.